Ahh, break has officially begun! Twelve whole days of pure freedom. My friends and I had originally planned to go celebrate and eat out for dinner but I decided that I'd rather not. I don't know, I just don't feel like going for some odd reason. I hate how I feel so inactive and dormant lately. Scratch that...not lately, but for as long as what seems the past couple of months. It's strange but I guess I'll have to push myself to spend a little more time with my friends and "socialize" a bit more than I usually do.

This Friday is my cousin's one year wedding anniversary party at a restaurant in New York City so I'm really looking forward to that. It'll be awesome seeing all my family together considering that the last time I had a chance to see everyone was on Eid, which was nearly a month ago. Whoah, that day seems like it was months ago. Hmm, and next week we'll be going down to Virginia to stay at my dad's aunt's house for a few days. We were there back in March and I had a blast, so it should be fun.

Hmm, some things have been kind of irritating me lately. It's frustating that my friends and I nearly always talk about the most trivial of things. We almost never engage in deep or meaningful conversations. It's sad because I have so much that I'd love to talk about and discuss but never get a chance to actually do so because my friends are never interested to say the least. It's not that I don't make the initiative, because I do. I guess not everyone will have the oppurtunity to possess friends that they can talk to about anything and everything. There's tons that I keep bottled up inside that I'd probably never disclose to anyone, which is extremely nervewracking.

Yesterday, I was talking to three of my friends and somehow, something that had occured two years ago was brought up. I won't explain the situation because it's long and hard to really describe, but it was something that completely effected the level of trust that I had had in my three friends. To this day, I find it hard to fathom that they did what they had did, and to be reminded about it again yesterday was just too much. Funny thing is, I never had a chance to honestly confront my friends about it. Well, I did confront them but I didn't make it a point to let them know that it had in fact, hurt the trust that I had for them and along with that, our friendships. Heh, this was two years ago. Well, since it was brought up yesterday by someone other than me, I stressed how low it was of them. My friend blurted out, "well, what was it to you?" Haha, what was it to me? Oh man, don't even get me started. I started telling her about how manipulative it was of them but my third friend stepped in and told us that since it was two years ago, we should just forget about it and move on. I know that she's absolutely right, but I'm not the one who brought it up and delved into it. When I'm told that something so unimaginably wrong was nothing of importance to me, I'm obviously going to say something in my defense rather than sit there like a log. Eh well, whatever. I just had to vent because no one that I know in person would want to hear me talk about it. Thanks guys.